I often put something and someone for granted.
Always happend and same ol cycle.
When something i desire is not achieved. Then u will see im putting my ass off working hard for it.
Wait till I get my hands on it. U will notice how I let them slowly moving out from my life. Or maybe letting go. Or pushing them away.
I always find hard to balance my commitment. Toward bestfren and toward friend.
The most scariest thing is. When i get too attached, it is hard for me to turn back and be same ol me.
I mean like. To be too dependent and relying on same person, it is just scares me alot.
That is what I always thought about being committed onto someone.
Even for my family, I always work hard to impress my parents, and how many times it turns out to be a successful mission, count with ya right finger only.
That is how i misserabbly fail when it comes to impressing my parents. That is why. I often stay low. Be a mid achiever, because I dont want my parents to put high expection on me.
The idea of being someone important and expected to achieve something better, scare me like a shit.
See. I dont have battle with any1. I have battle with my ownself. Shit. Im crazy man.
Finish. I think i like the idea of living wolf or lion life
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